Saturday, June 28, 2008

Musings of a 36-year-old

Thirty-six, my friends.

The downward slide toward 40.

Almost 13 years of marriage.

Five kids in my home, and five foster kids who are loving life with their forever families (all over the US, and one in Africa).

A pastor's wife.

No gray hairs (of course, I don't look for them!).

Finally have tools to maintain control over my depression and anxiety.

I am enjoying sex again! Whoo! hooo!

My boobs are getting flatter by the minute (but I throw those saggy puppies around with pride).

One nose stud - to better draw attention to my father's nose, that has yet to leave my face.

I'm now a registered Independent.

When I'm sitting at my laptop, and the light catches a reflection on the screen, I totally see my mother staring back at me. Gives new meaning to the phrase, "Hi, Mom!"

I doubt things. I doubt all the things. A lot. But I don't fear it.

I am beautiful.

I am art.

I am so very happy.

17 comments:

Candace Jean July 16 said...

You are so raw and so honest and so earthy - I love your blog. A lot of what you say, sometimes I feel like you say for me because I'm such a chicken. God bless you on this best of birthdays. 36 is a very good year. I'm with you with the still growing, still learning, but I'm SO older than you (and I'm ok with that). Peace and Godspeed to you this sunny Saturday.

Christine said...

Thanks, C!

I'm enjoying aging. There's no better way to grow.

Shan said...

Happy birthday dear girl! Hope your day is as wonderfully special as you! :D xo

Tracy said...

I just respect and adore you so much! I wish we could get together sometime. Get a babysitter and I'll treat you to starbucks to make up for the cost of gas for coming to town!

Amanda said...

happy birthday!!!!

lana said...

Well, I was coming over to say Happy Birthday and I am loving your post. I pray this is a great year for you!

AmyDe said...

Thanks. I found your blog this morning as we're busting getting ready to try a new church. I'm anxious and fearful and your words have helped me. I feel so full of fear and doubt in my life and I am comforted today that it does not make me a bad wife or mother or Christian to be fearful or have doubts. Thank you.

Cammie said...

Happy Birthday, Deadwoman!!

Andigrcpc said...

Hey, Christine. I am also on my 36th year around the sun. Can you point me toward some good information/advice on enjoying sex again?

Christine said...

andigrcpc, click on my topic cloud over there on the right ("sex). You'll find a bunch of my posts, but the one titled, "Not tonight, Dear ..." has some good tips.

Oh, and never give up. Never give up. Never, never, NEVER give up!

Angie said...

Amen! What a great post -- happy birthday!

Llama Momma said...

Hey, I'm 36 too!

And I can relate to this on about a hundred different levels.

Thanks for the honesty!!

Family Gregg said...

You are ferakin' awesome!!!!!!!!! So nice to meet you.

Dawn

Family Gregg said...

that's freakin'

Heather said...

Happy Belated Birthday! I'll be celebrating my 38th next week! Funny, I don't feel 38. Come to think of it, I don't act 38 either. Or, maybe I do. I'm just glad to be me.

dreamingBIGdreams said...

LOVE this. I don't know you in real life ... just in blog life ... but i wish i did. i just know we would be real friends.

:)Jamie

Jazmin said...

I'm 5 days late, but as we're apparently 5 days apart in age, there's a certain rightness in it.

Happy Birthday. 36 is just getting started. :)