I have not wanted to blog much in the last two weeks about my most-struggling kid. My main reasoning is because we are seeing some improvements. Just typing this right now means we will probably have a really sucky day in the near future. So, I'll type in a whisper ... shhhhhhhh.
They still wake up every single day and wants to control. They have moments of insisting on having the attention of everyone in the room. Still picking fights with us (but this is down to about once daily, on average).
My child has turned a corner. We have not had to restrain them in two weeks. We are "reading" them much better and able to help redirect before there is escalation. It is still very, very exhausting, but we are offering them many more opportunities to succeed instead of fail, and they are actually choosing these options more and more.
We have made some pretty startling discoveries. The amount of things my child uses to manipulate are indescribable. I can't go into details, but there have been massive revelations on our part recently, as well as our therapist. Granted, this is good, and it helps us help her. Still ... makes your head spin. You've been surprised over the amount of manipulation for months and months and months ... then you peel back another layer to realize there is even more. It's tough, but you just look at it. You stare it down, and then say, "Okay, so let's move forward."
My child loves us. They really do. They feels close to us, which is why they still feel the need to push away in little ways ... all. the. time. And yet we are now at the crossroads where a few things are showing up because they are lifelong habits. We'll tackle those things slowly. We're sorting through the layers again.
Cool. We can actually sort through layers! We're not spending our days hunting them down because they ran away, or getting estimates on fixing a broken window, or holding them in a restraint while realizing we have to go pee really bad, or being called all sorts of colorful things, or, or, or ...
Now, as my child starts to act angry over the tiniest of things, I can just hike my leg and say, "Hey, dear, do you have straight shot from over there?"
"To blow some more smoke up my butt ... I want to make it easier for you."
They roll her eyes. Everyone else giggles and makes more gaseous jokes. Pointless crisis averted.
Must go. Have some of the neighborhood kids over and this child is playing with them in the other room. They have not been able to to do this in over two months! We have an older sibling prepped and ready to police anything inappropriate and report it to me. We have a baby monitor on to hear if any voices escalate. They've been in there two whole minutes, so I'm already calling it a success!