Thursday, June 18, 2009

In case you thought I wasn't human

Tonight I was letting one of my kids have a radio on in their room. They worked pretty hard today in their healing. We've been talking all day about how their siblings will arrive about midnight, where they will crash to sleep for the evening, how that will be wonderful AND stressful (having to share sleeping spaces when these three have been so spread out all week).

"Mom, why is this other bed set up in here? Should I sleep on it?"

"Honey," *heavy sigh from a very exhausting day of dragging the kids all over for all kinds of fun and swimming in 4 million degree weather* "what is your big feeling? How can I help you?"

Blank stares. A few exact quotations from things I said during the day. Some kids who have spent a lot of time in therapy do prefer to just regurgitate what they think you might want to hear.

"Okay, darlin'. I'm unbelievably tired. I can't wait this one out. Sorry. I was excited you were getting the radio back. I'll go ahead and unplug it and have [your sibling] crash with the other kids tonight. See you in the morning."

It was just a radio. I should've let the "nonsense question" about the bed go. Sure. But I didn't. Because I'm human.

They totally snapped, "GET OUT OF HERE!"

I, in a complete and total (very human) huff totally copied her on the way out the door, "GET OUT OF HERE!" ... sounding JUST like a 4-year-old. It smelled very "I know you are but what am I?"

Didn't want any of you to worry. I can be a complete baby. They'll probably wet all over everything. I so don't care. Right now I just want to get my contacts out and read and count the minutes til my husband arrives.

Sometimes you do great. Sometimes you join them in the mess.

Yet, still other times you sound like a preschooler.

"I know you are, but what am I?"


Sean's Ladies said...

thanks. I was beginning to worry you were super-human!!

Still an awesome mom!!!

familygregg said...

nanny nanny poo poo

Hannah_Rae said...

I have SOOOO done that. Thanks for the reminder.

Recovering Noah said...

Awww, thanks for stooping to my level. It was getting kinda lonely down here. ;-)

So how did everything turn out this morning?

Story of our Life said...

Kind of curious how things went this morning?

And well....I'm human, too. I'm sure you knew that already.

I had to stop for a second a few hours ago after I snapped at my child(ren)...

Then thought - I'm tired. Sick.Tired. of it...and they aren't even the RAD-y children in the house. That child just looked at me, blank stare, mouth closed as if I was some freak of nature...

Brenda said...

So there.

Unknown said...

You have every right to be human. *hugs*

Babsness said...

I've learned that sometimes it's my "human" moments that bring me closest to my kids
When the see me rebound from those moments, they know it's possible.


familygregg said...

Exactly, Babs.

Unknown said...

story of our life -

Things went fine the next morning. Granted, having all five kids back yesterday meant lots of, um, "energy?" in the air. Overall, though, everyone did really well. We stayed on top of the stress.

Walked in to Mar's room yesterday morning and she was ready to talk. We also talked about what she WANTED to do to pay me back, but she DIDN'T. This is a whole new thing for her. She had a nice little list of things she could have done - bed wetting was one, but she ruled it out quickly. :) Doesn't want to do anything to her Mamaw's house.

Lisa said...

Oh yeah.... the four year old reaction....BTDT... so many times.

Last night I was sooooo close because I was unbelieveably tired. The kids didn't do anything it was just me being exhausted. All I could think about was just getting them in the bed so that I could crash.

Emily said...

Patience only stretches so far, doesn't it? You are an amazing Mom but this is an amazingly difficult situation. :)

Seems that things always look better in the morning, anyways.