Monday, March 28, 2011

"because I am involved in mankind"

I am naturally and easily selfish.

"stinginess resulting from a concern for your own welfare and a disregard of others" - WordNet

I believe it tends to result from fear.

"a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined" -

I encourage myself to practice discipline.

"training expected to produce a specific character or pattern of behavior, especially training that produces moral or mental improvement." - The Free Dictionary

Then things inevitably become difficult.

"requiring great physical or mental effort to accomplish or comprehend or endure" - Word Net

Which results in fear and pain.

"a warning mechanism that helps to protect an organism by influencing it to withdraw from harmful stimuli" - Encyclopaedia Brittanica

It is at this point where we find ourselves reacting in a way that can then cycle us right back to selfishness.

Living in community does not allow you to ignore this process. Living in community forces you to make a decision at each pass. Living in community enriches your life through joy and celebration and intimacy and fear and difficulty and pain.

My community encompasses many, many people, but it starts within the walls of this repo double wide. It starts every time the sun comes up. If I cannot practice it, I cannot teach it by example. If my family cannot live it, we cannot share it.

Parts of this process become easier with practice, but IT is never easy.

I will forever wrestle with this ebb and flow of mankind, but I pray I never actually step out of the ring.

(title of post is a line from "No Man is an Island" by John Donne)

(photo by Billy Alexander, used with permission)


Jena said...

Love love love this post. Am practicing living in community on the east coast :)

Integrity Singer said...

you stay so positive and upbeat. Sometimes I wonder if you EVER have a blue moment. Surely you must, you're human. But your positivity and optimism reigns supreme. Hats off to you, then, amazing woman.

Sunday Koffron Please Stand Up said...

Girl, just keep on keeping on.

mrs. c said...

How is it that I have just now found your blog? A friend recently sent me a link to one of your videos and I immediately wanted to give you a huge hug. And, I'm not a hugger!! So, that's a big deal! We adopted for the first time 16 months ago. Where were you then??!! Oh, were here. I just didn't know! It's okay, God covered me and He's been helping me to figure it out a little with raising up a child who has gone through trauma. I am now watching your videos, and reading your blog, and, in doing so, God is confirming the things He's been guiding me toward. Thank you for allowing God to use you! It helps me to be that much more willing to be used, and my husband and children then reap the benefits. Let's all just be used and useful, okay? Okay. Thank you, thank you! I will now go and try to mimic your tone of voice as I go to referee some screaming children outside. I might even copy the accent. God bless and keep it comin'!

Christine said...

HA! That made me laugh so hard. I wonder how many people are walking around using therapeutic interventions with a Texas drawl. LOLOLOL